Why? part 2

Why ?
Why ?
Why ?
Why ?

I used to be happy .
I used to be happy when they could comment on their statuses each other .
I used to be happy when they could meet each other .
I used to be happy when they could text each other every night and everytime .
I used to be happy when he told me what he felt about her .
I used to make himself fool whenever he met her .
And I used to be happy when eventually he was in relationship with her .
And I used to be happy when I eventually could successfully match them .


But , it's totally different now .

What's on my mind now is feeling really regretful !
Since I've got a problem with him , I started not to be happy anymore !
I started to think why I did it ?
Why could I do that things ? I mean STUPID THINGS !
Such a weird things , right ? Yes , I recognize it too .
I've never thought of this before that this thing would be happened . I've never expected this before that this thing would be happened to me ? Is it karma ? I don't think so .
Firstly , I was so happy to be able to make them match till they could be in relationship , and eventually my feeling is totally changing , feeling REGRETFUL !
My mind now is full of the word WHY , WHY , and WHY ! =='

And there's an addition .
It seemed I've got its sap . And this made this worse .
I like her , and now I love her . I don't know when I excatly start to have this feeling .
Everytime I see them together , I'm sick ! I usually get upset .
I feel jealous , envious , and green ! It's so sick !
Now , after they've broken up , I firstly felt happy . It's the same as what my mate guessed . And I think he should be a paranormal . LOL
I think after they've broken up , they are no longer together .
They no longer like their statuses each other . They no longer meet each other .
But , I'm totally wrong ! It doesn't happen as I guess , as I wish !
I feel more jealous and jealous whenever I see them doing that , like their status each other !

So , is this FEELING REGRETFUL ?
Is this so painful as like I am ?
Or is this another karma I've got ?

I have no idea .
I REGRET and I'M SO JEALOUS !
*enough*